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I answered the phone in a really twattish way today. Didn't have my 'phone head' on *sigh*.
"Hello [company name]!"
"My name is blahblahblah and I'd like to book an appointment"
"There's no-one in the office right now, can you phone back tomorrow?"
(why didn't I just go through the book and find a feckin time slot? Eh?)
"Can't you just make me an appointment?"
"It'd be better if you phone back when someone's here to confirm it"
"Well, why don't you put the phone down and I'll speak to the answerphone?"
(cheeky !*&$??*)
I wasn't there to do much, I was given an hour's work on the phone last night. Got it all done ... so why did I pick up the frickin phone?
Div 'ead.
I feel a bit daft.
It's the bit I least like about the job, but I expect I'll get used to it.
Anyway, I'm quite enjoying a wee bit structure to the day. Posted something to someone that I shoulda posted last week, so you'll mibbe get that tomorrow I haven't bought any poetry for about 5 years.
I found myself on my hands and knees today too (oo-errrr) Once a cleaner, always a cleaner - I swear it! The office kitchen looks better anyway. And the CV I did today looks healthy. The filing system is mayhem. I expect I'll fix it a little at a time.
Soggy day.
Managed to cycle without getting soaked but it started as I went out to point at car park spaces. Saw a few friends. Did that thing one of my blog friends was complaining about "I've got a new job, I'm starting tomorrow ... I've got a new job, I'm starting tomorrow ... I've got a new job, I'm starting tomorrow ... I've got a new job, I'm starting tomorrow ..."
Ahem 
Came home. Had lunch. Went for a nap 
Spoke to the genius of love. Textually sparred with a dull stalker. Gawd, he/she/it is annoying. Went to the shops. Flew to the Bahamas with a group of travelling banjo players.
See. All quite riveting and exciting stuff Bet you're glad you read that now.
Mini had a tiny bit of homework to do at his dad's. He forgot. He also left the book with the homework in it at his dad's. I give up. I'll have to write a note explaining all this on the letter they sent me requesting my signature for his lax schoolwork. Feck.
Had tea. Scrambled eggs and bacon mmm with chocolate cheesecake for afters *blob*
I reckon the boy might be willing to make a cuppa now, don't you?
BTW ... single mum isn't a slur it's a strength
feeling exhausted ... time for an old-people's nap
Don't ask me anything when I wake up cos I get dead grumpy 
You may phone me, if you so wish
----Email Message-----
Sent: Sunday, October 28, 2007 2:26 AM
Subject: Re: Next Door To The Old Folks HomeI used to work at a nursing home, and every night, when the residents were being escorted back to their rooms, I would sing old jazz songs my grandparents used to play. The nurses thought I was crazy, but the residents all smiled and some would make requests and tell me stories about the good old days.
I thought I sang just to make the residents happy, but I was singing so that for a few moments I could share their memories.
Maybe you should sing a little closer to the old folks home.
How cool is that?
About 148 people have read this blog today. It's usually about 150 - 200.
I wonder who they are? What their blog says. If they have one.
It never used to be that number. Used to be about 30 regulars. It doesn't bother me. We all like to read real life stuff. Me, personally ... I love looking at the way people are. That's mibbe why I read books about relationships, novels etc., and watch soaps. It's never event-type books or programmes ... always the mixture of communities and stuff they go through.
Dunno why. To learn mibbe? To be nosy? I love reading about how my friends handle things, y'know. Everyone has things in common but their own style of handling the shit that hits the fan, special things about their character, revealing small things about their self that affects the way you look at things.
I spent most of my life so far trying to be acceptable. It makes you feel a bit fragmented. It makes others think you're flaky It's hard being yourself sometimes.
Dunno why this ramble came out *sigh*
wafflewaffle
Well, this week has been full of ups and downs. The downs weren't too bad, apart from those nasty couple of hours the other night.
Today I feel frickin fantastic. The next stage of Operation Liverpool has gone through and I'm well excited cos ...
*dundunduuuuuuuuuun*
I can now say with certainty that I'm going to L'pool in 5 weeks time
*wriggle*
35 now Flicky.
Today I've been doing science homework thank God for Wikipedia and Google. Hubble, bones, heart transplants etc. Gawd ... I don't remember any of that!
It felt really good showing the wee yin how to format a Word doc though. He was dead chuffed. You can kinda tell he didn't do it though the other bit that I didn't format looks ... er ... different *oops*
*happy me*
Went out with P. Reeeeally needed that.
A blether and some browsing. Bought some tops for work. P bought one for me too, which was nice 
Felt like I hadn't seen another adult for weeks, I had, but the last week has been ... um ... child 'friendly'.
Mini was out staying at a pal's last night and I expected to come home and find wee boys trashing my house. *listening outside for bouncy bass*
Nowt
There's been wee people here for half the week, doing the Xbox thing and playing crap young folk's music. I wouldn't mind if they stuck to F.O.B. etc but Mini insists on playing that gangsta (c)rap. Did I say I missed him?
The other half of the week he's been at Maxi's house, but they wanted to be here cos Maxi's Xbox is bust
and I'm the soppy sod that lets them have the run of the house
...
so that I can blog
*breathe*
Oi! Me! ... Stop. Bluddy. Worrying.
I wish Mini was here tonight.
Yeah, I know. I don't dump on him, seen that happen a few times with folk. Could do with his daft company.
Today has been a bit rocky. It's probably nerves about Monday. The job start day. It's my 13th anniversary that day too, but it passed without worry last year. I'm more concerned about things changing. Not that change is necessarily a bad thing but till you get there you don't know, do you?
There's been no news or paperwork from the lawyers at Lawyers 4 All.
Tired.
I just added a Christmas tree to my facebook!
Aw, feck off. I like Christmas, su therrrr!
*all excited*
Gonna book my first exam a wee bit sooner than the end of November.
Caller - "I'm walking past a sex shop that's closing down. Anything you need?"
Me - "Hmmm what do you think I'd look good in?"
Caller - "The same postcode."
Damn The Hits channel.
It's the school holidays and the wee besoms are staying up late. So what do they do?
Show tracks with text along the bottom of the screen, stating all different positions of the Kama Sutra. With helpful cartoon drawings to show you how it's done
Mini has a friend staying tonight.
The boy's gone to see The Dark is Rising with his wee pal and pal's dad. It's v sunny out there and I feel not at all ashamed for still being here, instead of 'out there'. 
I've to write a letter of acceptance for the job, and phone the DSS to speak to them about what to do next (they already know of the job but not officially with paperwork and stuff).
I bought a can of pressurised air to clean out my PC and I'm terrified of beginning that task. *taping white sheets over the whole house*
Yes, I know. I'll do it outside.
I'm thinking it might be the way to go with the rest of my dusting. Except I can't take the house outside 
cos that would involve turning it inside out, or outside in, and builders and stuff. Hmmm it's sounding more complicated by the minute. Nice idea though.
I used to blow on Mini's face to stop him crying when he was wee.
Mother of The Year 1995
Also used to lie him face down when he had a blocked nose, as a baby. Yes yes I was watching the whole time. He snuffled so much that huge bogeys would appear as if by magic. Sorted.
I should be on that programme shouldn't I? No not the Jeremy Kyle show ... the one about different parenting techniques .... physics - that's the way to go!
blahblahblahblah
That's enough of that.
A picture.
It's the start of the holidays (again)
Took the book back and got a refund on Saturday. You know how I was dreading the 'looking for jeans' sketch? Bought the first pair I tried on
M & S ... Per Uno ... one pair of black jeans exactly the same as the two others I already have? That'll do nicely
These aren't frayed at the feet though. I was gonna say 'at the bottom' but I'm not handing that one to you.
Boy got dropped back tonight and I got a request from ex. Is it ok if he doesn't see Mini in a couple of weeks time, cos he's meeting the new one's parents? Fine. But you realise I'm going on holiday from 30th Nov to 3rd Dec? Suits you me, sir!
*wiggle*
Question for ya ...
Why is Andy so damn cute?
We could have woken with one of us watching the other one sleep
We could have grinned at how sunny it is and affectionately argued over who was doing brekkie in bed
*I'll do it ... No I'll do it!*
We could have decided I wasn't gonna write about that.
We could have wandered to the station together, but not to say goodbye
and explored the weird-named places that I'll never search alone
I'm not sad either that this wasn't our morning. Cos I know it will be again.
And I'm not wishing my life away. There's a painful pleasure in the waiting.
I'm good at waiting, mostly
Really not feeling too proud of myself today. No matter how arsey someone has been in the past, I don't need to start throwing out crap. He wasn't even being arsey the other day. He was trying to spot the pattern in case I didn't (mibbe?) Anyway, I'd like to take it back. Delete? No, it's been written now. 
Doesn't sit easy on me. Sorry. You didn't deserve that. Can't cope with thinking of someone feeling shit cossa summat I said. And the comments that follow, because of it.
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time to get off the circle break the habits and live. Else regrets and death with come.
Ok. Ignoring the mistaken word ...
I've ...
* come out of a destructive marriage
* seen a Skills Coach, who sorted out my qualification
* got a part-time job
* started training again
* started a new relationship
So in short ... do shut up!
Bought a book to refresh my memory with Office Word. Saw a better one in the next shop, bought that one and took back the other one. Emailed the genius of love™ to link him to it on Amazon and realised it was 10 times cheaper on there! Bought it from Amazon and will be taking the other one back .
Bluddy hell.
Was having a crummy night and I just got a delightful text. You wee besom/tease. Woohoo!
*cough* (I wrote that one for Molty's stalker)
Ahem
Anyway, did lunch with P. Ogled at goodies in Breeze, Paperchase and looked for blouses *bleugh* that always makes me think of big girls ...
I don't care about getting clothes as much as I care about being refreshed about shortcuts in Word docs
I need more girly genes or just jeans, prolly smart ones. All mine have the hem cut off
blahblahblah
I'm ridiculously happy now for this time of night, thanks babe you broke it xxx
I suspect I'm going to fuck-up big time soon. You know those warning signs that epileptics get? I get a variation of those when I'm gonna wreck my life again.
Naah, I don't really, but it sounded funny to write.
But I do recognise when someone's getting pissed off with me and my hellovadramatic insecurities.
Should be sleeping early and waking early cos I really don't like this time.
*flashback to hairdressers mirror*
So depressed and depressing, sorry.
Don't break into song with exuberance when 'Packard Goose' comes on yer MP3 player. You'll get strange looks.
Got my hair cut I feel about half a stone lighter
Very thick hair.
Missing you know who, too. Always.
*itchy neck*
... my skin tag fell off!
Should I mourn? Part of my body has dropped off
I feel like less of a woman
The youtube vids of Green Wing are hysterical ... so I can't choose one. But I've just realised that it might be in keeping since the theme today is being all environmental and green
Green Wing's more mental than environ though
*sigh*
I'm so full of it.
I'm recycling words.
Tomorrow I'll be cycling ... to the library. Then I'll recycle back home
