Subville

Very different. Very dark. And BRILLIANT! Best episode *big grin* (cause this is from my mobi and won't emote.

(edited by Subs' personal assistant)

Won't be on for a while. My PC is dying. I'll be lucky if I get to post this before it crashes again.

See you later

This is annoying

PC on for about half an hour then blue-screens. I've switched no applications on, done nothing different.

I've tried de-fragging - it blue-screened

Tried scan disc - blue-screened

Unplugged external hard drive - blue-screened

Bluddy thing

Well, the boy toddled off with ex a wee while ago. I'll take the tree down today. Feels a bit crass having it there after all that's gone on.

Justify/feel guilty ... justify/feel guilty

Over and over.

Look at my house ... I have nothing to complain about, I feel so blessed.

Empty empty empty lives.

Battling again. Rattling again. Eat the blue one, virtually.

Fine. It's just 'a day in the life ...'

It'll pass. Fade. Be 'just a blog post' and distant memory.

I hope the girl's alright. Mini has me, and him. I don't know who she has now. She used to have me for support. Passing thought - maybe that was a problem to the mum?

Gah! Leave me alone, me.

No flowers, please

The Stacy & Bradley storyline makes me feel a bit down. I get so involved lol

They were doing so well, recovering. I'm a right sap for it

Is it the shared sense of excitement? Knowing that we are all preparing and getting excited about a similar thing?

Yeah I know a lot get fed-up with it, but it doesn't break the unity. If anything it enforces it. We're all part of this, we react differently but have the same needs. We get those needs met by different sources.

The need for community and sharing is there.

I don't feel 'brought down' by folk saying humbug, sometimes I feel like that too.

Oh I dunno ... swirly thoughts

M'ok. (had a small kerfuffle yesterday)

Woke with lovely phonecall, three lovely texts. Mini and his dad arrived at 9.30 ish.

Opened pressies. Joy

Pleasure mixed with guilt - ooh big surprise lol. Prison is, no doubt, a rubbish place to spend Christmas. She brought it on herself I guess. *shrug*

Risotto was lovely. Apple pie and custard was scrumptious. Posh biccies (a present) were nibbly.

Another lovely phonecall. (it's all a bit lovely, isn't it?)

Still shell-shocked. Happier.

Mini has invited a friend round later. He got Assassin's Creed and is desperate to play with other kids on it.

Bit tired. Going to play Destructo-Match 2

Lazy cow today

That's fine cos I'll be in work Thursday and Friday. No paid holidays cos I'm classed as S/E *eek*

Limped down to church yesterday afternoon. It was a later service, to be kind to everyone who needs a right good lie-in My stick really did help me getting down there. It takes me 30 minutes to walk there and usually I'm aching when I arrive. I wasn't yesterday

Parking was easy cos it was the first service. I'm usually on the 2nd one, when folk are leaving at the same time as others arriving and it can get a bit manic if there's a surge of 'oh-crap-we're-gonna-be-late' people (there always is) ...

"How many spaces you got down that end?"

"3 on this bit and 2 on the other bit I think" (not enough of us so I'm covering 2 positions) *arg*

Anyway, did that. Went into the service and it was jam-packed. No room at the gym. There's a 'back bit' with empty chairs so I sat there. They leave the doors open and put the 'back bit' speakers on, so I can see and hear what's happening (choir singing Christmas stuff and a spot of cool piano and trumpet) It's a bouncy church, not yer typical Church of England yawn place. (that's just my opinion, there are lots different types of churches cos there are lots of different types of folk) We have a funky band and choir who have released 2 CDs so far - they really are very good. I say this as someone who went to a church I didn't enjoy that much, 14 years ago, and stayed for 3 years cos the music was black gospel and truly kickin'. I'm fine about that, I'm looking at it retrospectively. This church is ace and has good music lol

Anyway, as it's the carol service there's no child-care. A few mums and babies came out, mums and toddlers, etc.... then folk who wanted to talk. I couldn't flippin hear it. Then my ex's GF walked past with her child ... and I decided to wander round to the bit for refreshments.

I'm still tiptoeing through this, emotions keep belting me and I don't know what to make of them at times. Ex went to church with her last week. Anyone who saw them will be 'thinking stuff', this week they will be looking at me and 'thinking stuff'. It all got a bit much. I was relieved when familiar faces turned up in the coffee room and I could busy myself with chat. Spoke to pastor's wife about Liverpool. They both come from there. They used to run a church there. Told her about the accents etc and she demonstrated how her accent goes back when she goes 'home' for a visit Class. I love her.

Anyway, had a great chat with some mates, then hobbled round the front, where my parking boss dude offered me a lift home Yay!

Mini arrived back on ex's bike (ex walked with him) cos the van has no MOT. Oops, bit of an oversight.

So that was my evening. Spent the rest of it listening to Mini talk about Mij, his ferret. I'll try to get him to video it eating an egg for Christmas cos it's truly hilarious and you need to watch lol.

He's been a blogger here since March 2006. He has 97 ... that's ninety seven friends. He's Welsh, but not gay. He is a photographic genius - photography seems to be a true love of his and has been for 40 years his hobby is teaching IT at the University of Wales and he used to work in the Navy.

He supports Newport RFC, is a keen cook (especially anything involving chillis), keeps Koi carp, is interested in history and he writes poetry!

From what I've read, he enjoys community and has loyal friends who know him well, and I think I'd like to become one

I've been having a look through his photos and he seems to like rusty things a fair bit which I'd read about before, since he's become a good friend of a friend His photos are outdoors, nature, landscapes, buildings and castles and they're beautiful. He often catches a poignant moment, which he shares with a social comment (which I really like)

He has 3 blogs ... his usual ... USKSIDER'S PHOTO BLOG gorgeous photos, go look

and this 2nd one ... saline drip which is about his memories from navy days

and this one ... A Little Something For The Weekend? which is a photographic teaser, guess the piccie (I hadn't seen this one before)

His Flickr site is here

and there's quite a few more links to other sites he belongs to too many for me to list

I'll just finish here with some photos that caught my eye *ouch* (only kidding)

And this is the man, himself ........

Go read, and feast yer eyes on those photies

Thanks, John, it was lovely viewing xxxxx

GO ON, you know you want to.

We used to have a silver Christmas tree when I was wee. It was over 6 foot and too tall for the room, so my mum cut a bit ... off the top

I can't find the photo that I know I have of that tree, so here's one - for Molty really - cos I told him I looked like the test card kid when I was weeeeeeeeeeeeee.

That proves it, Molts su therrrrr

Gawd this'll sound like a boast again but it's not.

I wanna say how frickin generous my bro has been today. He sent cheques to Mini and I for Christmas. No, it's not him being un-thinking and flip. He knows about the single parent stuff, being from that family himself.

Thank you, C. I truly love who you are ♥ ♥ ♥

Nicked from Faffa and Andy ...

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Wrapping paper.

2. Real tree or Artificial? Artificial and enormous.

3. When do you put up the tree? As early as I can get away with (mid Nov)

4. When do you take the tree down? Dunno. Mibbe end of Dec.

5. Do you like egg nog? Never tried it.

6. Favourite gift received as a child? A doll called Anna and her (posable) horse.

7. Do you have a nativity scene? No.

8. Hardest person to buy for? Dad and step-mum.

9. Easiest person to buy for? Mini.

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? Neither, this year

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? A 12 inch plant pot

12. Favourite Christmas movie? The Grinch.

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? December.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? No

15. Favourite thing to eat at Christmas? Anything I normally enjoy!

16. Clear or coloured lights? Coloured. Many, many colours.

17. Favourite Christmas song? Frank Sinatra/Doris Day type croon-y songs.

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? Stay at home.

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeers? *tsk* Santa's not real y'know

20. Angel on the tree top or a star? Neither, a robin.

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Depends how late I stay up

22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? Miles.

23. Favourite ornament theme or colour? OMG don't be so sad!

24. Favourite for Christmas dinner? I'm not fussed, I had Spicy Veggie Lasagne one year.

25. What do you want for Christmas this year? Him.

26. Who is most likely to respond to this? Me.

27. Who is least likely to respond to this? Well, I'd have thought folk that don't like Christmas very much but ... (see first line of post)

There will be quite a few of us bored sh*tless over the holidays.

I propose that we switch on our 'Im online' thingies in Settings so that we know there are folk around stepping over the tumbleweed.

Waddya think?

He sounds really really tired

Never heard him sounding so exhausted before.

Bluddy extra bits (extra time?)

*prays* travel safe

I've point blank refused to do a roast this year

We're having risotto

And apple pie n custard for after. Devon custard

I frickin love risotto, and it doesn't take 4 hours to cook!

I cook like I shop, it seems.

Mini won't eat risotto though, he's really not very adventurous. Although he did admit to trying sugar snap peas recently and now likes them. That is unusual for him. He'll prolly have pepperoni pizza and pasta, with some raw veg on the side, as per usual

Carbs boy. Maybe I'll do some home-made sauce? It's not as if I've exerted myself too much this year.

ok then

To Do List:-

• Buy tins of plum tomatoes and custard
• Clean house (a bit)
• Do Secret Santa
• Sort piles of paperwork
• Stop picking at chocolate stuff

The lad's staying at a friend's tonight. The house feels eerily quiet, quieter than it was last year

Hmmmmm

That gingerbread man I brought home from the Bucks that is Starry ...

was so feckin hard that it knocked a filling outta my tooth

Joy to the world blahblah blah blah

*shudder*

*click 'em if you can't read it*

You Should Have a Purple Christmas Tree

For you, the holidays represent a time of creativity and expression. There's no way you'd do something bland simply for tradition's sake. You are an independent person, and you definitely do the holidays your own way. And you're decadent enough to go way over the top with any unusual holiday ideas you have. Your purple tree would look great with: Purple lights and ornaments You should spend Christmas Eve watching: A Christmas Story What you should bake for Santa: "Kitchen sink" cookies - with a ton of things in them

PS ... to put this in yer blog you have to paste it into old editor, change to new editor, highlight all, select the paintbrush icon (clean up messy code), then switch back to old editor.

I faffed about a lot

edit

Here it is

I've finished

... till the 27th when I'll pop into office and check emails & phone messages. I don't mind, it's a 10 minute walk. On 28th I'll be doing some CVs. Then I'm not back till the 2nd.

When my boss came in this morning he had a *huge parcel. For me! *gobsmacked*

After the mildly desolate Christmas last year, this is turning out a bit more cheery. (apart from the hormones)

I actually pulled a muscle carrying the parcel back home lol. Dunno what it is but he said 'be careful' cos it's fragile!

Got home in time to receive a package sent through Firebox ...

*cut to 8am text*

"Oh, forgot to say ... don't open it x "

*befuddlement*

No idea what was meant but ... I bluddy do now!

... after I'd opened it

Well it was 8am and I was almost out of bed

*doofus*

Anyroads, thank you hon, sorry for being a numpty (again)

*I'm not boasting, I'm relishing nice stuff ... you've been here when I've moaned very loudly too y'know

This a pre-event apology.

I will most likely lose it this year. Very, very sorry to all those who may stumble upon this blog.

x

Something's been bothering me for a while, it doesn't swamp me all the time, just now and then.

I wish I could explain it properly but I don't think I could on here

I get mega upset when good friendships mess-up.

When I found out loony friend had a crush on my hubby it caused me to have a mini-breakdown. I was sobbing my way round offices, hoovering like it would clean the mess. It didn't.

Within the last 2 years I fucked-up a potentially good friendship with a bloke. Nothing physical. Not like that. But I messed up and it's hurt ever since. I'm not going to cry. Dammit.

When my mum's back went into spasm (she had a slipped disc) she used to say it felt like she couldn't shake her tail, when she tried to describe the feeling to the docs.

That's exactly what it feels like. Frozen.

But

It's gone now! Nearly All better

Wiggle.

Sometime in 2006 - a trolley

Yesterday - a walking stick

Today on Facebook - 'How Old Are You?' quiz ... seventy frickin five!!!

And I'm sat here, under a blanket quilt.

*meh*

Aw crap ... and I have such a dull life that I'm telling people on blog what is happening in my frickin Facebook

And

When I typed 'saddo' into Google Images, it came up with this ...

*kicks blog on way out*

Well, the Mooshy cushion arrived so I musta ordered it correctly. As is typical - it arrived when I was in the bath

*barely concealed Subz wrapped in not-quite-big-enough towel*

poor, poor postie

My pal P gave me a lift into town to post it. I cannot miss sending my aunt a Christmas present (again). My back was aching so I wore the TENS machine. The batteries were a bit gubbed the other day so when I put new ones in I discovered just how great it works on top form

After a wander through the crowds and standing in queues, the twisting was utterly killing me. I could hear folk 'tutting' behind me cos I wasn't quite fast enough in my dodging movements. Should I wear a sign?

There was nothing for it ...

I had to buy a walking stick *sob*

It felt really odd at first, but it's height adjustable and I've got it at the right support now.

Go on ... do yer best ....

I got a parcel.

I really want to open it.

But I won't.

Feck, I hate being well-behaved sometimes

Cancelled the CBT. My head hurts too much and I don't even want to think about the walk to the surgery with my stoopid back.

Woke with a woozy head due to the Valium. It's not helping at all. Only helps for immediate 'get out of spasm'.

Fecking fed-up with it TBH.

I thought I'd ordered summat the other night for my aunt, online. I've had no emails about it so I prolly didn't complete the deal - was tired.

This means I should go get the pressie from town so's it's posted in time but that means actually moving.

Did I mention I was fed-up? *fneugh*

This won't last, it's just pain depression. More frickin inhalations and I'll be right as rain (what a crud saying)

Moody cow.

Sorry I'll stop.

Here's where I grew up, in Paisley

There were loads of kids in my street and, mostly, they all played with each other. The two big hills behind my house were ace although in my opinion underused. There was a path between them, called 'the black path' A particular friend of mine, after the pub, would walk through here with a crowd of mates 'baaing' to each other like a ewe and her lost wee lambs when - as you do - they separated a bit in a drunken haze.

I had my first caerrie oot sitting on one of those hills, and no doubt one of my first trips *ahem*

That first hill is also the first, and only, place that my brother stood up for me when I was getting picked on.

Our garden was full of fruit. There was a plum tree planted too close to the house, it had a rope tying the top of it to the house. My cat, Piper, used to use it as a boing to get up to my mum's bedroom window, where she left muddy footprints all skidded down the glass as she made her way to peace and quiet and a comfy bed

The hedge at the back was redcurrants, blackcurrants and gooseberries. There was a big bent bit on the green diamond-shaped-wire fence where we climbed over as a short-cut. Rhubarb in the corner next to our short-cut, potatoes next to that and three bushes of raspberries opposite the back hedges.

mmmm raspberry jam, plum jam, just raspberries - nicked before mum got back from her school

The bald bit on the metal window frame where we used to hit it with a brick to make the catch jump and open. Standing on a bin doing this was kinda tricky sometimes The cats watched with awe!

*arg* a huge amount of memories flooding through but I'll stop there.

My back was out of spasm when I woke this morning, I put it down to the TENS machine that I had on all day yesterday rather than the Valium. Still very tender and jerky sore.

Got emergency appointment at doc's. Got a really nice doc today. She gave me more Valium, antibiotics for sinus thing, antacid things, anti-Ds. Mainly things that begin with ant really. I rattle when I walk.

Hung around cafe while they 'built' my prescription at the chemist. Got loads of foody type shopping things. Regretted it. Limped back home and am sitting here wrapped in a double quilt to cushion my back

Boss just phoned to ask how I am. Bless. He says I don't have to come in till Wednesday! That'll give me time to recover, although I'll miss the routine and banter.

*feeling cared about*

*revelling in it cos I'm more used to feeling sorry for myself and this makes a nice change*

And breathe!

Updated every Sunday

Phoned my boss earlier. Well, one of them cos I don't have the other one's new number yet.

Can't go in tomorrow will phone the doc for emergency appointment in the morning. Need Valium, anti-biotics and renewed script for anti-D's.

Falling to bits, eh?

Feck.

Phoned the office and left a message on the answerphone for the other boss to get tomorrow. I don't want to be off cos I enjoy work *weirdo* and we finish on Friday till January.

It's a strange complaint to have, I'll grant you that ...

I've been watching that programme about Paul Potts. Jeez! I wept a little bit. I never watch The X Factor or Britain's Got Talent. It's all a bit cheesy. Usually. It was ace watching the judges reactions to him when they'd been expecting guffness I had shivers and goosebumps too.

I had a success with a plant a few weeks ago. Forgot to tell you! This dodgy looking plant needed re-potting. I didn't photo it at the time but here are the leaves, they'll take a while to recover/grow new leaves ...

I was convinced it would die. When I took it out of the pot the roots were so enormous and the leaves looked awful so I decided to leave it outside to die lol sorry plant.

Some time later I thought - aw feckit, I'll give it a go. So I bought soil and a new pot and re-housed it.

This is what happened when it was left without soil for quite a few weeks then given a new chance ...

Bluddy loads of flowers! And guess what? It's an Orchid My camera phone needs much more light to get good snaps, so here's a close-up of a couple of them ...

Amazing, huh?

Sometimes stressful situations make you work harder to survive. I've met rather a few folk on here who remind me of this example. Aw Gawd, I'm being dead cheesy now

Thanks, you lot, for the get well soon stuff

Took a Valium last night cos my back had gone into spasm. Slept much better as a result still woke at 3ish but my brain was happier to go back to sleep mode again with woozy chemicals running through it. I only have one Valium left. Dilemma. Have it today? Therefore continuing the relaxation of problem muscles. Or have it tonight? Ensuring a decent sleep.

Well ... I have the TENS machine so I'll probably do that during the day and save the small, powerful, chalky thing for bedtime

I thought I was gonna miss all the ailments of winter but it all saved up for nearly my holidays *grrr*

My sinuses have been giving me splitting headaches and I've gone through a pack of Sinutab. I'll have a list of stuff for the doc to fix tomorrow

Also got that thing yesterday, the thing that makes me feel sick. Ovulation pain (NOT like period pain) I didn't mention it in my last post but that was happening too.

I'm not on friendly terms with my body right now.

Dunno how to finish this post lol. Moan moan moan

Not sleeping at all well these days. Woke at 4ish this morning and lay there till I realised it just wasn't happening. Dragged KS quilt downstairs and watched 3 episodes of Men In Trees. Fell asleep. Woke and watched another episode.

At this point my back was feeling twingey but I tried to ignore it. Had a bath, online shopping arrived whilst in the bath. Managed to answer the door (poor postie). It was my bro's christmas present - a pair of smoking gloves

Wrapped them and headed into town. Frickin bus didn't show up so I started walking. Not one single bus passed me the whole way there! Bastards. Posted it. Found summat for P and summat for ex. Did Starbucks. Walked over to the mall part of town. Fucking agony. My poor back and hips were killing me by this time but I still had to swap Mini's school trousers for a bigger size.

Felt quite weepy (but didn't) and alone, walking past crowds of couples, groups and families, so when my mobile rang it nearly pushed me over the edge lol.

Dashed Shuffled into Boots and bought one of those Deep Heat patches to try. Stuck it on. It helps a bit but the pain in my hips is possibly arthritis

That's the most of the town stuff done. All the presents that have to be sent - have been. Except one which still hasn't arrived from Firebox.

I've stuck to my no cards thing. Everyone will hate me None for me next year then. I don't care.

Right. Need a cuppa. See ya later xxx

Thanks, PS, haven't looked for a while.

Lazy, wandering-about-the-house morning. CBT lady phoned to cancel - her child is ill. Went to work at 11am. Did 2 CVs, phoned a few clients, posted stuff.

Was gonna go into town again to get school trousers for Mini. I've been meaning to for a while cos he's a messy pup but yesterday capped it. He came back with a rip after tripping over a kerb, scuffing his knee and covering himself in mud.

Feck.

Decided to go tomorrow or Thursday. I was there yesterday and don't fancy doing it again so soon

I'll be in the office alone again tomorrow, not much to do over the next few days as one boss is moving ... listen to answerphone messages, check the emails, phone next-day clients, archive old files, wash the blinds

Och, I'm going to bed. It's cold and the Radio Times for Christmas has arrived. Must go circle all the stuff that I'll forget about and get p'd off about.

Hot water bottle, cuppa tea, Radio Times, pen and fags

Attractive, huh?

Missed 3 hours sleep last night so when my boss said there wasn't enough for me to do today, after one hour, I was dead chuffed. He phoned earlier to tell me I don't have to come in till 11am tomorrow too! There's an audit tomorrow so I'm quite pleased to not be around for most of it.

I really do like the boss too, and not just cos he's in favour of flexitime! He's funny, in a subtle way, and quite eccentric in a quiet way.

Anyway, today I went home for a while then headed towards town (the smaller part) to meet P and A and the kids. Got some bits and bobs for the wee yin's Christmas stocking and that Family Fortunes dvd. Can't find the Ray Mears dvd that Mini wants to get for his dad

*pah* I s'pose I should check Amazon or play.com but I'm soooo tempted to tell him I couldn't find it I might have to hide it till he's leaving

Had a gingerbread latte, which I've been avoiding for a coupla years cos I thought it'd be guff - but it's not - it's fairly tasty! Panatonne too mmm.

Got home and I'm aching, yawning and generally exhausted. Was wondering why till I realised I'd lost some sleep last night. Careless, eh? I shall find it tonight

Tomorrow's wee jaunt after work will be short.

P is driving into town with our friend A (not Andy) and her 2 kids. I will meet them there. If I go straight from work I can do a spot of window browsing before meeting them, and perhaps a little bit afterwards too.

Present for ex (on behalf of Mini)
Present for P
Present for ????

I might buy that dvd game, Family Fortunes. I quite like the TV show and I'm thinking I might need it over crimbo if there's too much Ray Mears type stuff or DIY stuff that those two are watching

We never watched the same stuff. It was always them V's me. Lonely. I'll try to join in, but I can't promise anything

If they watch frickin Hulk Hogan/Indiana Jones/Steve Irwin stuff again you'll hear me screaming in the next street Timbuktu (wherever that is)

I'll be thinking of you as I sip my latte

Hmmm

When I posted 'Seethe' the other day ... it wasn't about any of my friends. So ... you lot ... don't get paranoid

It was just some snidey comments I'd seen somewhere and it infuriated me.

That's all.

Thank you, Frank, for the place where people give courage to others.

As I said earlier, I went to Hotel Chocolat today *dribble*

I bought me summa this ...

Aztec Chilli Hot Chocolate *slurp*

Maaaaaaaaaaaan

The first time I tried choc/chilli it was in a sauce, covering a kinda knickerbocker glory sorta thing. Ice cream, marshmallows, lumps of choc, maltesers, cream and sauce over it. You only get the choc/chilli sauce if you order a double one for sharing. Me & P got it and it was bluddy gorgeous.

This isn't quite as good, but you still get the kick

I had an erotic dream last night about a blogger

Sorry - correction - an ex blogger.

He was on a different site and someone told me they'd seen him there, gave me the URL etc. So I wandered over there and he was in a very different guise! His profile picture was almost unrecognisable cos he was half naked and very very hairy

We chatted for a little while *cough*

Then he took my hand and walked round a posh mall buying hundreds of little trial sized bottles of luxury toiletries

Frickin bizarre!

And I've no idea how we came to be chatting in real life, from me looking at his website

Andy Someone found this yesterday and didn't post it.

So I will

Gorgeous!

*sob*

That was an ordeal.

Got one present, wrapping paper and some stocking fillers

Nearly didn't make it out of Hotel Chocolat

Ah well, going out with P on Monday so will look for stuff then.

Decided I'm not doing cards. This will change 5 days before Christmas then I'll somehow manage to do it under pressure. I'm not kidding.

Did buy myself a lovely silk hat though It sounds OTT but it's shaped like a Benny hat, made of silk offcuts that have been knitted together. Very colourful.

*thawing out*

Wish somebody would make my tea dinner ... sigh.

Magi's post last night inspired me to shift my arse and get the list done. Shopped online and got 4 presents another one arrived today and I already had one stashed in my tee shirt drawer.

Gonna do town:

Cards
Wrapping paper
Stamps
3 presents

I shop like a bloke. Doing the hokey cokey.

In. Out. Shake it all the card about.

Then the main event (when I return to being a girl) Starbucks ... latte ... cake

It's my present to me 3 times a week

What?

Boy George was sorta kinda half-right *said grudgingly*

pssst I reckon someone should buy Juzzzy one of these

We missed an opportunity there folks

You know, we're all the same inside. When you take off the skin *yuk* we're not so different.

*screechy song* "lose this skiiiiiiiiin ... that I'm living iiiiiiiin"

Tell me tell me tell me

Do you 'close' when you have to say goodbye? I've looked back on myself doing that quite a few times now *dunno* just summat I noticed.

I've seen a 'sliding doors' moment when my perception fucked up massively. When my head couldn't take any more. I say I've seen it but perhaps not. I never trust my brain I watched the door slide shut and thought 'ah well, I can't fix all my mistakes.'

Stopped slamming doors a while back, literally and figuratively. How good is that?

Happy.

That's all

"No comment"

I'd have an early night, if it wasn't for the fact that even going to bed at a normal time makes me wake at 3am. Dunno why.

*interlude*

Oh thank God I've finished those horrific organic earl grey tea bags - bleugh!

*second half*

Anyway, I'm tired and bored and eating carbs ... cos they're my friend

Well they said they were.

"We'll put a nice layer of fat buffer round you so nothing will touch you!"

What is wrong with me???????????????????????????????

Eh?

First two exams today.

1st one = 92% pass
2nd one = 92% pass

woopeedoo

Next one is the 7th exam. No, I don't know either.

I almost forgot!

Gutted for the wee yin

He fell out with his wee-girl-he-likes today. She has a few admirers and seems to be keeping them all hanging on. (ditch her, Mini, ditch her)

He's loyal though. Which is sweet *sickeningly proud mum moment*

No-one in work tomorrow but I'll be going in to do a few CVs. Next week we get audited but unfortunately I'll have to be there for that. I get nervous with folk hovering round when I'm working.

On Monday I was doing a letter when the printer informed me there wasn't enough ink. I minimised the Word doc and set about changing the cartridge. I have an Injet and this is a Laserjet (which I've never changed before), Boss had no clue, guy in other office had no clue.

We were fairly baffled about inserting the cartridge (we thought) ... I had pulled the silver thingy and cut it, getting ink all over the scissors. Neither of us was sure if we should pull the whole silver thingy out "Should we? I'm scared!" LOL

Took the scissors through to the kitchen to wash ink off them. Forgot they were scissors and sliced my feckin thumb! Blood and ink all over the worktop (and new sponge that girl-from-other-office has installed) *meh*

*toilet roll wrapped round thumb*

We had been threading paper through over and over and it came out with a load of smudged illegible letters on the left-hand side When I maximised the Word doc the page looked the same! Mashed-up smudgy letters on the left-hand side!

*feck*

I typed the whole thing out again. It was a one-off letter so I wasn't gonna save it

Phoned Andy at my house. Andeeeeee!

.................

Andy arrived. Yes the cartridge looks fine, no problem. Checked the doc's file menu for clues. Copied and pasted the text into Notepad ... fixed!

Ever wanted to smash a PC? Silly question, huh?

*thrrrp*

HERE

Feck. Life's got too many 'bits' just now

Feels like I'm running to catch up, constantly.

Today ...

Mini hurt his foot so he's been off school today. I couldn't take any more time off so went to work in morning, then CBT thingy, then phoned doc's on the way home and booked him an app. Went to app., got shopping on the way home then made his tea. I've had crisps

I want to collect my thoughts and post summat deep & meaningful. But my thoughts were by recorded delivery, and I wasn't in

Not having enough time to blog is the pits ... it'll all calm down soon and I can get back to my usual mountains of paperwork heaped round the PC room and other projects from my procrastination-athon.

*thrrrp*

So, in short, I'm being quieter on blog but it's not cos I've imploded this time

Going to find food. See you inna bit xxx

Well.

I frickin loved my weekend

It started on Thursday when a certain gentleman arrived and I dashed off, leaving my blog to it's own devices. It had it's own party, apparently *hoovering maniacally* It seems a few traipsed through here with dirty great hiking boots

Anyway. It was not in the least bit nerve-wracking this time, like Leeds was, cos my not-very-secret blokey was with me *boing*

You lot are ace ... I'm not gonna do some big gushy thing cos I'm crud at that. But I really had a top time.

Meno is an amazing woman. I don't know how she kept up with herself Glad you are home safe and well, hon *huge hugs* It was an honour to meet you. Thanks for making that immense journey to be with us

The hugely funny moments, the sadder moments, the poignant moments, the awkward nervy moments ... it all makes up what we have here ... a community of friends ... life, in fact.

Yay! for Blog Meets. If you see one happening ... do it!

There should be a picture or summat now, but I've ditched my camera after it gave everyone a hard time this time last year lol no-one really wants a green face now, do they?

Unless you're him ...

• You were born on a Monday.
• Your star sign is Cancer.
• The season was Summer.
• You are 39 years, 4 months, 10 days old.
• It is 233 days until your next Birthday.
• You are 14,377 days old.
• You are approximately 345,070 hours old.
• You are approximately 1,242,255,146 seconds old.
• More information on 22nd July.

Courtesy of Juz, from HERE