It's all a bit quiet in here today. I suppose everyone's knackered after the Bloscars hecticness. No Friday Five, but can ye blame him? lol He started a new job yesterday and did the bloscars thingy last night. He needs a holiday

My boss was off today. Did a few CVs, sorted the end of week paperwork, answered the phone about 20 times, my tutor from LearnDirect phoned with updated opening hours for my boss ... so I booked my exam while she was on the line Next Tuesday.

The wee yin's been sweet tonight. He has a friend round again. He saw a teardrop on my t-shirt, went to the shop for bread and brought me back some biccies ... not just any old biccies .. Co-op truly irresistible Double Choc Chip Cookies. I trained him well

I might weep for Sean. Violet's run off with the baby. What is wrong with me?

I wish I was brave. Don't ask

Jeez, that was manic

And all I was doing was commenting!

Congratulations everyone and thank you Paddy

I dunno how you do it ... wi' yer new job today too!

S'pose I better go to bed ... work tomorrow

A very enjoyable night.

Thanks to everyone involved

Our very own Landers (or Paddy, for older readers) will announce the winners of this year's Bloscars.

This is a fun thing for the whole of Blogville, so please join in with the daftness and celebrations

... and thank you so much, Landers, BlogLikesIt, ajnspencer and Lyndlj for all the work you've put into this.

xxxxxxx

Have fun everyone

I have a new friend

He's the person I've known longest ... in the whole wide werrild!

Su therrrrr!

I love getting my hair cut, and I know that's weird. Most folk hate it.

It's just cos I leave it for ages till it's doing my head in ... then it feels like a huge weight is lifted I feel like me again.

The boy has a friend here tonight. There are two friends with him right now but I'm hoping that'll change They've were rattling on about free-running over the Co-op roof. I'm not sure if they're double-bluffing me *sigh* Boys are weird.

I received a card today that was the same picture (almost) as the card I sent to that person first! They hadn't seen the one I sent when they sent it (it got lost in the post till today) It's freaky how in-synch we are at times, and sweet.

Went into town with P again today. Hadn't seen her for a while as she had to cancel last time due to suspected gall stones and loadsa pain. Did Starbucks and the new John Lewis's cafe. Bought Hot Fuzz on DVD. Bought nail varnish (oh how girly!) My nails look 'normal' now

Ah well, off to watch soaps, see you later xxxxx

Your writing isn't that bad

Well after last night's insomnia, I was late for work. My boss phoned at 9.45 *eep* I was still in bed!

Finally got to work at 11 She was ok with that. I didn't cause any delays.

Ah well.

Came home and chatted with my bro for 2 hours - yay!

I can't get on messenger, it's been off all day and is doing my head in. I've tried all kindsa stuff. Even made another passport using my gmail

Most untimely.

I hope it's their problem, it usually is but you never know *sigh*

Getting my hair cut (at last) tomorrow. A minor celebration as I'm beginning to look hippy-ish!

In other news, I trust my gut instinct more than I did before. Ne'er mind, eh?

I'm not asleep

Went to do a big shop yesterday after work ... with ma trolley

It wasn't all that strenuous, but my hip doesn't seem to believe that and I took less tablets yesterday cos I'm a scatty cow with a guff memory

Been awake for a few hours, hoping I would suddenly not feel any pain and fall asleep again. Yeah right. Even tried doing my back exercises.

The cure was toast, tea and a great big tablet.

I might go over there *points* and put some music on, but I'll keep it down a bit cos I know you've got work in the morning

Clicked some pages up to look at on blog ... all one solid colour - no text!

Oh ... and ....

from you know who

*snigger*

REALLY

Had a lovely day today. Madders came to visit.

A much needed chin wag. In fact, the longest chat we've ever had I reckon. Wandered into town looking for cake. Unfortunately his back started giving him gyp. I shoulda lent him my stick or some very strong painkillers that prolly wouldn't touch the pain anyhow

Found cake in Cafe Nero ... and how! White and dark chocolate truffle cheesecake - bluddy hell! How nice was that? The lady serving was frickin top too ... I only had a debit card and she said just come back with the money when I've been to the cashpoint! How trusting!

Took loadsa pictures (well, he did) and I trusted him to take photies of me

I kept him yapping for ages so we had tea from the chippy.

All in all a really nice day. Cheers, pal xxxx

He's gonna visit again soon

... when that Nick fella gets his arse up to Camb

I feel almost ill with gut-curdling paranoia. I don't know why. So I'm gonna spend the rest of the night trying to work it out.

1. What was the last thing you cooked?

Sausage 'n' mash, if you could call it cooking ... frozen mash heated in the micro

2. What was the last thing you tried on?

A pair of shoes, in RAW, which I bought - they're awesome

3. What was the last thing you purchased on credit?

A roller blind for the kitchen door, from Argos storecard

4. What was the last thing you put a postage stamp on?

A hard-backed envelope full of freshly printed CVs

5. What was the last thing you took a photo of?

*My son on his new bike

I've stuck it in media files for friends only

My boy turned up in an AC/DC t-shirt "For those about to rock"

He'd been at his bezzy mate's house, I thought, he phoned me a wee while ago.

"I'm at ??'s house, I'm coming back in a minute and I've got summat to tell you"

*dread*

Turns out he was down town attempting the latest Mini parent-terrifying activity ... parkour.

He fell off summat, hit his butt on the stairs, bumped down the rest of them and twisted his ankle.

Me - I've spent the evening sobbing my heart out over Laurel's baby dying (in Emmerdale) The baby's name is the same as my son's.

I'm caught between wanting to kick his head in and wanting to wrap him in cotton wool and keep him away from anything sharp, fast or concrete.

Bluddy weans.

Mini's wee pal (the 6 foot one) is talking to him again. *phew* He knew I had to tell his mum. He said he just wanted to try smoking for a bit and he's not doing it now.

Met Mini's best mate's parents in the bank today - yeah I got paid - they seem quite pleased that the boys have hooked up again. They were in Georgia for a coupla years. The boys are chuffed ... in the way that you can only be when you meet up with a best mate again and discover you still like each other. He used to be quite naughty but he seems to have grown a lot. It's lovely and I'm very happy for my boy. Friends are important.

They're at the age where they say sexual innuendos to try to embarrass me - ha! That'll be right

*toads*

Yer not funny

I watched The Brits. Bit of a shambles but it was nice to see Amy getting it together again. Still a little bit scatty looking but better. Very nice to hear the crowd's applause when she came on with Mark Ronson. The presenters didn't twig that the applause was mostly for her. Was it? I thought so. Folk get hacked-off when they see someone being kicked when they're down. It's a backlash that the media trashing her mibbe didn't think of Mibbe they did, who knows?!

I shouldn't have said summat yesterday. I may have upset someone.

No, all's well!

I. You have to look up page 123 in the nearest book around you.
II. Look for the fifth sentence.
III. Then post the three sentences that follow that fifth sentence on page 123.
IV. And then tag five people, just like you were tagged!

The book nearest ... WORD 2003 Personal Trainer

8. Click the Width text box down arrow until it displays 5.0".

Notice how the Preview area shows how our document will look on paper that is 5 inches wide. Now try adjusting the paper's height:

I tag ...

Alec Weston
Denzil
faffa
Juz
Miza-T

My throat feels like it's closing up

*breathe*

1 – I like the sound of my son hungrily eating toast after school
2 – I’d have done pretty much anything to own a horse when I was younger
3 – My life is very dull but I don’t mind most of the time
4 – My granddad lost one finger from one hand and half a finger on the other hand; he also lived with a broken neck for years without knowing it.
5 – My mum was the only artist allowed in to draw the Paisley jail. We still don’t know what to do with the sketches
6 – I have one brother, four aunts, 3 uncles and six cousins
7 – I locked my Home Ec teacher outta the class once for a laugh. It wasn’t that funny.
8 – I refused to consider ‘new’ music for years and years. Just stuck with my old hippy bands!
9 – All the years have merged together. I couldn’t tell you when certain things happened.
10 – Secretly, I’m great.
11 – I don’t give a crap about money, but I seem to get by somehow
12 – I’m mildly impressed by women who can twirl guys round their wee fingers but I don’t respect them
13 – I used to be right lippy
14 – I had a kinda break down when I was about 21
15 – My divorce is being handled by someone else now. I think they read my blog
16 – I work extra hard at my job, more hours etc. cos I never think my best is enough or equal to anyone else’s ‘normal’ (have always done that)
17 – I’m a mass of contradictions, a patchwork quilt of emotions
18 – My hair looks like I dyed it (dark at the top and auburnish at the ends) although I have never dyed it
19 – Aw feck I sound dead negative
20 – This is really difficult
21 – I can de-value things that I know I’m losing way better than anyone I know
22 – Sometimes I wish I was a bloke, it seems easier
23 – I‘m too lazy to make a huge effort
24 – I’m doing ok as a mum and I never thought I would
25 – That looks a bit guff next to the lazy one
26 – I don’t practice what I’m supposed to preach
27 – Blogging has surprised me more than anything I’ve ever done
28 – I had my first acid trip in a rock star’s attic. I was 15.
29 – That night I puked in the downstairs bathroom halfway through watching a Jimi Hendrix video, and my Mars bar melted all over their tumble dryer
30 – I’m scared my brother is gonna get mega ill if he keeps drinking like he does
31 – I’m a f’kin ace encourager when I put my mind to it
32 – I think my church is in trouble and it worries me (some folk leaving)
33 – I quite like myself even though I sound negative mosta the time. The parts I like remind me of my mum; the parts I don’t like remind me of my mum. (Go figure)
34 – I wear my Gran’s wedding ring on my 2nd toe on my right foot, cos I have toes a bit like Paddy’s
35 – I got baptised in a Mormon church when I was about 5 and I skipped down the aisle. I didn’t have a clue what they were about.
36 – I have more patience than I thought I had
37 – I would ask in a heartbeat if I thought he’d say yes
38 – I’m scared of the dark
39 – I used to think I was allergic to penicillin but I’m not
40 – Me and Andy are both at question 40 right now hahahahahaha
41 – I was taught ITA reading at my 1st school and when I moved they thought I was thick
42 – Gawd, I wish he was here
43 – I bet he finishes first lol
44 – I saw a woman shouting at another woman yesterday outside the chemist and I panicked cos I thought it was ‘the mad woman who haunts me’
45 – I miss Flicky and Charlie being on blog
46 – I should be arty or crafty, going by my family, but I’m neither
47 – I’m scared of flirting and always have been. It confuses me; I dunno where the line is
48 – Half the time I’m not listening
49 – I’m frequently surprised when folk seem to like me lol
50 – It still bothers me that my ex won’t tell Lie Woman why he won’t visit her now, and the problems she caused
51 – I veer between extreme and opposing points of view and emotions
52 – I’ve learnt more about guys in the past year than I have in my entire life
53 – They’re just as screwed up as we are
54 – Sometimes I liked being depressed cos it gave me a good reason for being a bit rubbish
55 – I’m always wondering what folk think of me
56 – The joy at hearing Mini eating toast was replaced by horror when I realized it was EIGHT slices of toast covered in chocolate spread. Maybe he will take after me
57 – I really need a holiday
58 – The person I’ve known longest on blog is Kharybdis. She went to the same school as I did and attended my mum’s funeral with us. She looked after my mum a lot when she was dying, and she’s utterly gorgeous
59 – Every time I ask Andy what number he’s on – he’s on the same one as me!!!!!!!
60 – My first computer was a 486 and I thought it was ACE, well it was an ACER
61 – I’m struggling here, you must be so bored
62 – Folk were wary of me when I first blogged, I’m still not sure why.
63 – I’ll be 40 this year and I’m dreading it, but not for the reason you lot think.
64 – I love being organized with paperwork, when there’s a formula, a package to be sorted. That’s why I love work so much.
65 – Social politics puts me off every type of situation. I want to live in Nirvana!
66 – The year my bro was born
67 – My first proper full time job was in a factory – and I discovered once I started that the girl who bullied me in school (which I had moved from) worked there and indeed was on the same bus every stinkin day
68 – My birth year
69 – Apparently I’m rather good at this too (but what guy would tell a woman she’s guff at it, eh?)
70 – I’m now a wee bit embarrassed at the thought of you lot reading that haha
71 – Me and him are freaking each other out by being at the same number again hahahaha
72 – I’m listening to Paul McCartney again
73 – The chorus is – “I find it very very very very very very hard”, it’s distracting me
74 – I haven’t been to church this year at all!
75 – I might go to a ceilidh next month. It’ll be my first!
76 – My hair needs washed and I’m dreading it. I might buy a shower.
77 – I was awake very early today but it was way too comfortable and warm to get up, wished that he was here
78 – I’ve switched to Psychedelic Furs cos PMcC was annoying me
79 – All my life I felt that one day I’d be noticed for who I am, for some reason.
80 – Gawd, I’m so boring lol
81 – Did I mention I love Andy Spencer?
82 – Mini is hoping I’ll not notice it’s his bedtime
83 – I’m itching to play cards on the PC
84 – I forgot till now that I was gonna get my ears pierced again
85 – I really really really really wish I hadn’t decided to look at blog then and click on Row’s link *arg*
86 – I just read Prydwen’s joke and laughed out loud, yes I did.
87 – I’ve been doing this for about an hour and a frickin half!
88 – I looked at my son’s website yesterday and was appalled at the spelling (gunz instead of guns is fine … coulor instead of colour is NOT)
89 – I hate the smell of Lynx Vice now
90 – I deleted all the comments from one of my posts the other day cos I couldn’t think of anything to say
91 – Paddy, Rampage and Nick were much better at this
92 – I can’t wait to read Andy’s
93 – I forgot to zamzar Alicia Keys, damn!
94 – He’s coming to visit at the end of March and it’s not a moment too soon
95 – I love vegemite more than marmite now
96 – I dunno why you lot read my drivel
97 – The reason I can’t sell myself (give myself a write-up) is because it offends me to do that
98 – I almost started biting my nails again writing all this
99 – If you see a band in Manchester singing Zappa songs, chances are one of the members is my bro
100 – I’m gonna be able to talk to my man now

20 to ten

Isn't there a clock in the bathroom?

Yes but it says 9.40

What on earth do they teach them? Yeah yeah it's my responsibility too ...

don't spoil a gag

I feel like crap today ... been feeling sick off and on all day. No I'm not pregnant.

Took no painkillers this morning, as I had physio at 2ish and I wanted to be able to feel the pain ... man ... or at least be able to point to it.

I ended up not feeling the pain I had before, so the physio woman will think I'm a dick.

Got some exercises to do ... oh and I've to stop leaning over to do dishes and wash my hair - feck! She said that's the worst possible movement I could do with the lack of muscle tone in my stomach

Buy another washing up bowl, turn it upside down and stand the washing bowl on top of it - higher up. Brilliant ... what about the hair? Rinse it in a shower position, not bent over the bath. How the feck do I do that? Get an electric shower seems to be the best plan. She didn't suggest that. It's the only solution I can think of. *meh*

Too tired to finish this xxx

I noticed in my local get-the-milk-for-work shop they're selling

... Skinny Water.

WTF?

Anyway I just looked on the www for it and it's HERE if ya wanna look.

My boy's fallen out with me

I grassed his pal for smoking. I couldn't not tell his mum. If I hadn't, my ex would have.

He's over 6 foot but he's only 14 (not my ex, lol)

Oh well, he's grounded now and Mini's in the bad books for telling me stuff.

Damn. It's not easy juggling good character with little folk's friendships.

I hope it doesn't put him off honesty.

postie

Re: the mad woman and her treatment of me ...

It was never about gratitude. I couldn't give a crap about alla that. She pranged the car and I checked myself for feelings of offence ... there were none.

I just got sick of everything being turned round on me ... if I helped her - I must have an alternative reason for it, a hidden agenda.

Her, and the other one, they were always bemoaning their bad luck, bad treatment, etc.

Sometimes I felt guilty. My ex worked and he looked after us financially. He was always there. He didn't hit me. He didn't tell me I couldn't do this or couldn't do that. Yeah, he got his own way a lot of the time and he lied. But he tried to make up for it in other ways.

Sometimes they put me in a position where I just had to help. You must have come across that sometime ... the ones who have a sideways dig at your circumstances versus their's. Other times I felt the desire to help because I could. Normal. I preferred helping when I'm not forced into it - when it comes from the heart I mean it.

The car thing was one of those times.

I think sometimes folk expect people to begrudge gifts. Maybe because I'd begrudged the gifts I was forced (guilted) into giving? Who knows?

Anyway, I had to write this. To clear the decks. No gratitude wanted. It spoils life when it's not given freely. Never expect it cos that's not what it's about.

That was my first thought, last night as the Eastenders credits rolled.

Coronation Street lulled me into a false sense of security with their - happy ending wedding (not that kinda happy ending ... but I suppose ... aw FFS shurrup, me)

Carla tried to split them up for her own lusty reasons but true love shone through ... Maria and Liam toddled off into the sunset

I'm more affected by it than I should be.

Bradley refused to try again with Stacey and that cad Max Branning is still there stirring up trouble *grrr*

Git 'im, Tanya, git 'im *shakes fist*

*cough*

Feel better now I've let that out ...

It can take one shit comment from one person to put you right back there.

I mulled over this today.

And came to the conclusion that - it only takes one person to make you feel like you're loved wherever you are.

I have more than that.

Thank you x

Ex came to collect the boy's clothes and Xbox. He's staying at his wee pal's tonight and going to his Dad's tomorrow.

"Pullease can we get a lift to ????'s house, pullease!"

"No! It's a two-seater and I'll get points if I'm caught doing that"

Mini leaves with his friend after much begging and pleading.

Ex goes out to van and written on the side in black marker is - POO!

We were laughing about it but I don't fancy Mini's chances tomorrow ...

I read somewhere that some of the media dudes had agreed to back-off from Britney and Amy for the good of their health! This is the nicest thing I've heard from media sorts for frickin ages. Wish I could remember where I saw it.

It's not April yet, is it?

What five things are you grateful for today and why?

1. Andy - ohhhhh yuss

2. Mini, my wee lamb, even though he drives me mad at times - I adore him

3. My blog buddies (obviously)

4. My new(ish) job

5. My amicable separation