Subville

Ah! It's bullocks in the field I cycle through. Not cows. I say hello to them twice a week, they look at me intently now, as though they recognise me

They usually sit just opposite the only bench, next to the path. I stop to have a fag and smile at them.

Today I saw one of them trying to shag another one. Bullocks.

Gym was good today. I remembered most of the exercises and felt like I got a good work-out. Still only £1.90 - woohoo!

Ex phoned when I got back. He works on a private estate, loads of old folk who are a bit well-off. A guy who lives there is giving him a PC. Scrubbed hard drive, loads of dics with it and ... XP professional (yay!)

He's giving it to the wee yin. We shifted the desk back upstairs to his bedroom. Must get extra long ethernet cable.

Got a whole set of books through the post too! Thanks, sweetheart. Terry Pratchett. They were his sister's. He already has them so these ones are for me.

This has made today feel slightly like Christmas

Yesterday wasn't so great. P had decided she couldn't make it but forgot to phone to let me know. I was waiting for a while, then sent a text "I guess something came up. No worries, see you tomorrow"

She phoned. Had rellies there all week and visitors arriving that afternoon. Sorry, cos she forgot.

Ah well. Trotted off to hand papers in to the lawyer. Banked £6 of change in the boy's account. Bought a pack of sarnies and a load of Indian foods instead of spending a fortune in Starbucks.

oops, PC arrived ... gotta go

New pre-beta update.

But you have to be canny.

... to someone at church once

more animals

It's my wedding anniversary today. The divorce isn't through yet. And I got the date wrong

Pilates was good today, it got a bit easier doing all those things at once. There were only four of us today so loads of space, and the sun was shining so I'd a nice bike ride on the way there. Must remember to take a scarf in future though *brrr*

Yesterday me and the ex had planned to have lunch for a catch up. Since the wee yin was around we all went. He's been getting in an amount of trouble recently so spent the lunch hour lecturing him he didn't object, knew it was a fair cop.

I'm bogged down by paperwork at the moment, but just keep dumping it in piles all round the house. Well ... all around me!

CSA form, to be posted
Lawyer stuff, to be taken to lawyer's
Sky stuff, pending
Virgin stuff, to be signed on Friday and posted
BT stuff, to confuse me
stuff I've paid but haven't filed
a phone bill to be paid

*aaaaaaarg*

Oh well, out with P tomorrow. Needed. My head is still slightly mashed but not as much as it was.

I beat my own record time for de-frosting the freezer yesterday too

Icy hands from scooping frost outta the freezer, then realised it was hailstones out there *points* and the big piece of board that ex brought for the lad to graffiti on was getting soaked. Dashed out to get it and it's now settled in his bedroom. Classy.

I missed Corrie the other night so tried to watch it on the website ... total guff. The sound kept skipping and the picture stalled more than a few times.

Am I the only one left who likes Jonathan Ross? I can't stand the doughball with the hair but J.R.'s funny. My ex hates him, doesn't understand his humour. He's not nasty, he never usually goes over the score with gentle souls. He did this time but what do they expect when they put those two together? He generally goes for it with the ones who'll cope. I don't care that they are quite obviously 'extras' in his show. It's a different kind of guest show and the guests know what the formula is. If they want gentle, go on a different show, mibbe?!

It's been said that recently he's been getting a bit too big for his boots. Maybe so, but this front page news is a bit crazy loony.

Right, Corrie's on. See ya later x

I readed this, I did.

It is good.

... Dragon is having great difficulty with her PC right now.

It freezes when she goes online, so she hasn't disappeared very far and she will be back when her hubby re-installs some software for her. Please don't think she's ignoring comments and stuff, it's really bugging her.

She'll be back ASAP 

Learning how to set boundaries for yourself is a difficult thing. When I was young my mum tried to set boundaries but we tested them and she caved. It was quite inconsistent. I feel sorry for how she struggled back then. These things are so important, the base which we sit our life on.

Looking back, I wasn't encouraged to have boundaries. One example goes as follows ... Mum went to a Mormon church for a while and some Elders would drop round from time to time to chat with her. One day they dropped round while I was in the bath. I was five years old and beginning to feel a certain awareness. They sat in the living room and when it was time to get out the bath, I was brought through to the same room, in front of the fire. We didn't have central heating and our house was frickin freezing most of the time. Mum stood me there, naked, in front of two American 20 year olds, to dry me off. I tried to cover up, hide behind the towel but mum laughed and said "Och don't be daft, it'd be different if you were 15"

Difference of opinion was discouraged, usually by anger and/or scoffing. All. The. Time.

I became quite an angry person and we would scream at each other a lot. I would trample all over her boundaries, and she, mine.

Since I found out the meaning of boundaries, the reasons for having them and all that jazz, I've been trying to establish what mine are.

All I know is ... it's very hard for people to accept them if you haven't had them in place when they first come to know you. Well, if they're not 'safe people' that is. If they are safe, they know what you're trying to do and they understand they will roll with it. If not, they will guilt trip you with it and try to manipulate you (Lie Woman).

It's not easy, there's lots of trial and error. Sometimes you can come across as being too harsh after being too soft for so long. Consistency is tricky too. All those reasons that you weren't harsh (or less of a walkover) before are still there. You're still you! Trying to be a slightly different 'you' can be a challenge. Also, you never can be quite sure if your personal rules are ok. What does it seem like to others? You tweak your rules as you go, trying to find the balance, trying to find where you feel most comfortable.

Life is a long, hard road. I'm trying not to hurt people whilst at the same time trying not to put myself in the position of being hurt. Once you begin to know yourself properly, it all gets a damn sight easier.

It's ok to say "No" and it's ok to learn.

We'll all live 

Gawwwwwwwd

I sent a bulk mail to a load of folk in my hotmail contacts

signing off ...

'Subville'  (and a smiley)

It looked like that smiley with the blank face, that makes me laugh.

It wasn't. 

When I looked in the sent folder

It was a frickin crying smiley

Grate

*own worst enemy*

Explanations tomorrow then *sigh*

There are words and phrases that I've only used since I began blogging. Most of them I only use in blog. Some of them are from taking the mick outta modern slang. Some of them 'belong' or were started by one blogger or a group of them but loads of us use those words or phrases and the history of them gets lost.

Paddy/Landers gave us llwnt. Now that's a one-off that will always make me think of blog.

Andy gave us fneugh. A home-made word describing life.

Tongue spelt like ... tounge, will always make me think of Fatey.

Teh makes me think of Hobbit.

I wish I could remember all the words I was gonna blog about. This sparked in ma heid a few months ago and now I've started writing it I'm stuck!

Have you got any favourites? Or words that you consider to be 'someones'?

more emotions here

The lad and his two mates spent the evening waiting for me to vacate the living room. When I did, they took over with the humungus beanbag tipped on it's end for Mini to use like a Fatboy, or a throne.

I really tried to relax and drop off, I wasn't worried about them being up late, they always flake out after a couple of hours playing Xbox at this time.

Sure enough, they stomped tiptoed upstairs at 2ish. But I was wide awake in my sensory elevation tank anyhow. Some drunken gang warfare was going on two streets away and I'd been tossing & turning for bluddy ages.

Thoughts, of a mornin' .... I haven't told anyone my new phone number yet. It's not massively important since I'm still connected to my 'old' supplier. Who do I need to tell? School, doctors, dentists, church, friends, family, DSS, lawyer. Um ... dunno *eep*. Two bloggers have my number, possibly three. Andy - has every other contact method possible. Oh calm down, me, I can tell him tomorrow! Juz - has my mobile, should he ever need a word. Soy - has my mobile and email and Skype. What am I panicking for? Just fuckin go to sleep! I couldn't think of all the other folk I needed to tell and for some pathetic reason that seemed highly important at fuckin mad hour of the morning.

Aw crap ... I think it was that last drink of the evening. Kevvie Wilson ... it shoulda been alcohol (in retrospect), it wasn't - it was Alto feckin Rica coffee. So there you go, Nick, it works *sigh*

Make that three things then

Humour, exercise and music

Walking away from the gym, I felt a need to cry. I didn't but it got my brain ticking over ... why?

It's obviously a release of endorphins and what that does to the brain but possibly more than just that ... the body's memory, like remembering a place, smell, sound?

The last time I started doing any kind of serious work-out was just after Mum died. It was exhilarating. I didn't get the achiness the day after my first aerobic session. I felt wonderful.

Feck. I don't know if I spelt 'exhilarating' right ... spell check doesn't work on here  *eep*

It's most definitely something I had to resume but I hope next time I just get the elated feelings without the gut-wrenching stuff.

Use Gmail?

Town with P yesterday was more flat than it's been for a while. We chatted in my house for a bit then headed off to the much lamented Grand Arcade (seen in ads on ITV, on a telly near you)

We know each other well enough by now, the highs and lows. I guess that's normal for most of you. I didn't think I'd have time for anyone again.

P is my friend because we know each other's pros and cons and accept them. Might get annoyed at times but that's normal.

Anyroads, we sat down to eat and as soon as I'd finished it ... *slump* ... someone slung a big blackout cloth over me. It wasn't a sugar dip, after a rush. Just a dip. Lasted for about 10 minutes but the weight of it was ridiculous. Well done, P, bless her. She coped wonderfully. We had a laugh later when we got moving. My head's fulla crap.

Today was the gym induction thingy. Not bad, not hurty at all really. The walking thing felt better than normal walking in the street. I think it was the support on either side. That big thing that makes you look like yer walking with skis on ... that scared the crap outta me. I felt very very vulnerable on it. You can feel where it's working and that was good but it seemed abnormal to be making those movements without screaming agony. Came off it after one minute because my insides were panicking. Tried other stuff. It was all good and I think I'm gonna get one of those huge blue balls (shurrup) to stretch on at home. I've heard it's good for all kinds of relaxation techniques at home. Ahem.

That's all I'm gonna write cos I've spent the last 40 minutes faffing about with the lappie. It decided to restart for bloody Windows updates while I was writing a post. I'd been telling it to remind me later, remind me later, remind me ...etc. But I missed the last one and it shut down. It lost half this post. It sat there doing fuck all for ages so I switched it off (haha, idiot!) When I switched it on again it made this strange screeching noise, like it had been alarmed and I didn't know the code. Ah well, all sorted now.

a day off from masel'

See y' efter

My house became a USA Airforce Base tonight.

Mini borrowed an Xbox game that is voice activated.

*aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrggggggggg*

Didn't start so well today (gawd, what's new?)

My front tyre was a little soft and as I started cycling it veered. Smacked into a skip, basket-first. The handle came off ... the basket changed shape.

Got to the fitness place in one piece anyhow. The Pilates was fine but I found the breathing difficult.

'kinell ... what a loser 

Problems with breathing!

I did ok, s'pose. Just need to keep practising and I'll be able to remember the 7 different things I've to do at once lol

It was only £3 because I have a LeisureCard. It's like a Cambridge Membership thing for folk who live here.

Managed to hold it together till i hit the changing rooms then blubbed like a bairn. Bizarre. It was a variety of things but whilst doing the exercises I changed position to make it easier on my bad hip and the trainer said "Well remembered!"  I couldn't work out what she was referring to so I went back to an *age-old sore and decided it must be that she thought I'd been lying about my pain (yes I know)

In hindsight she probably wasn't talking to me    Now there's  a pattern.

Anyway, I told you my head was fucked. Sat in the changing rooms for a bit till I thought I could move without blubbing. Unfortunately (?) it meant I bumped into the trainer in the car park when I went to get my bike. She took one look at me and asked. I muttered about being p'd off with my body for not being able to do what it used to - it wasn't a lie, that does bother me. She was lovely and I'm looking forward to next week.

Before that will be a trial on the gym equipment. The other trainer wants to see my gait since it's legs and hips I have most hassle with.

(It's tricky typing this, the new editor doesn't seem to like Firefox/Vista/Me)

Came home and blubbed for another reason. I can't be arsed blogging that though 

Oh yeah ...

* I was ill at school and the receptionist called me a faker. It made me question myself constantly from then on. Excessive? *shrug* that's what happened.

It's a bit lonely without you lot.

Feel free to delete me at any time

The past few days have been a bit 'odd'. Thanks for your comments and stuff.

If I answer I'll regret it. Lost a friend. End of. Get over myself.

Pirates Pilates tomorrow.

Seems my perspective has been fucked for a very long time.

Don't know what to do with this place now. Leave it here or as long as is allowed. The pro thing runs for a while yet.

Really, really knocked off my feet by some things. I've been through something like this before, a few years ago. I got through it so (gawd this bit's laughable) don't worry.

I. Don't. Understand.

@ Tuesday, 13. Nov, 2007 – 04:47:53 am

It's 4.40, my head's bursting and I've been awake since 2.18

Frickin acid reflux ... that's what woke me up, so I'm now in the land of milk n honey ...

n paracetamols (n prolly some antacids when I find them)

Stupid brain. It knows it's tired but it just won't bluddy shut up. Just like a wee kid.

It'll no doubt fall asleep face first in it's cornflakes later.

Or lying on the kitchen floor with a tambourine still in it's hand bwaaahaaaaa

Aw crap, I'll have to post it now, won't I?

Hang on ...

... a bit like that

Right. I'm off to look for things that exhaust brains.

See you this afternoon (ish)

Found out the other day that Maxi (LW's son) has started bullying ma boy, punching him in the stomach and kicking. Mini told him to quit it thinking it was over-zealous messing about. It's a little more than that.

A group surrounded him and a friend as they left school and went to the corner shop. Kicking his bike, mouthing off at him, etc. He belted it home once he got away from them. His wee friend phoned later to see if he was ok.

Ma boy was all stressy with me when he burst in the back door "I have to move schools!" asking if the school trip had been dealt with and being generally grumpy. Then he phoned his Dad and snapped at him. I asked him to pass the phone over. Explained to ex what had happened and the reason for the wee yin giving him gyp.

Ex decided to phone Lie Woman. Some time later he phoned me again. She wasn't buying it, Maxi had a different story, would have to hear it straight from the horse's mouth. I phoned and passed it to Mini. He explained and hopefully she will deal with it now.

Yesterday, the boys surrounded Mini again. Fortunately ex was hovering (it's on his route home) and when they started laughing and shouting he belted after them. Scared the crap outta them

I don't know what will happen today. Waiting. I had phoned the school about it and they said they'd get back to me. They haven't yet.

*taps fingers*

Had a fucking shit day.

Some idiot slept in and nearly fell down the stairs when the BT person called. Muscles weren't awake yet, y'see.

Why the hell do I let things bother me? Oh fuck off. Jumped from a normal day-to-day event ... into summat that's doing my head in.

*ignoring it*

I refuse to tell my side

Anyway, the BT person was a woman. That's the first woman who's ever come to my house to do labour-type-tasks. She disappointed me by having to call a bloke to come with his huge wall drill.

Well that's that bit done. The next bit's the Sky+ thing, Sunday.

Got next phone bill from Virgin ... £58.38 ... yer on yer way out dude give it yer best

Sore head. Glad I don't have to do a thing tomorrow. Oh it's so great being unemployableed.

P.S. I cannot believe I've been bookmarked by YOU of all people

Fuck you very much

Hanging from a thread

The other day I read summat that made me realise my opinions should be kept to myself.

Summat I read today made me realise there's absolutely no point trying to explain what happened if someone is particularly good at twisting history.

I'm not allowed to have friends in case they agree with me.

But I've to remain cheerful in case I see myself as a perpetual victim.

I'll be closing my comments from now on. I'll try not to read or comment on anyone else's blogs.

It seems to be the only way to avoid attack, and I really cannot take any more BS.

I'll close my message thingy too. Really have had enough.

Sad news in this 'community'.

Not feeling so great, throat and knackeredness

Going for sleep.

It's sunny too

ah well.

When you say it out loud

I become me

We become we

You Were Born Under:

Full of spunk, you are the original party animal. You bring fun, activity, and stimulation to any event. Self-control is not one of your strong points; you have been known to over indulge. Cheerful and energetic, you can turn the most boring thing into something fun. You are most compatible with a Rat or Dragon.

What Breed of Dog Are You?

I've got loads of leftover comments to reply to. I know yer not sitting waiting but ... I'm a bit knackered.

Need to re-energise a bit. (watch crap TV?)

*sigh*

All's well.

When I first started blogging I had an infatuation. An American bloke had been flirting a bit with me and it made me feel awake. Lots of longer term friends know this.

It came to nothing. He was just playing. The sparkiness was kinda what drove me on to the separation.

He refuses to speak to me now. It helps him feel righteous. It doesn't bother me (much)

Apparently he's in Afghanistan now (again) - he still speaks to Mini on MSN now and again, when they time-overlap.

I feel nothing for him now, except ... I hope he's ok.

I hold no grudge now. (yay!)

Take care, dude.

Next Wednesday = Pilates class (woohoo)

Next Friday = Supervised Gym session (eep)

The assessment went well, it was all as I'd expected. some of the classes available are in further away places which is a pain but I'm sure I'll find a way.

I fancy doing the aerobics thing at some point. They have 3 classes ... the first is sitting down aerobics (naah), the second is partly sitting down (naah), and the third is the jumping around thing that I used to do. I expect it'll be low impact though.

They do Aqua-aerobics too, which will suit me better than swimming. I have to be careful how I twist.

The Pilates sounds best. Really looking forward to that. It should start me off stronger. Quite excited about starting.

The worst thing would be pouring rain when I'm due to cycle there. It was sunny today. The first bike ride was fine since my ex lowered the seat for me. Less of a stretch on my back and legs. Gently does it

Physical assessment tomorrow. And it isn't by Andy

I'll be cycling for the first time in ages so will be knackered by the time I get there

Wish I knew why my lappie is so slow. I stop typing and the text is still trying to catch up

I have to be there for 10.30. It takes 45 mins to an hour. The Sky dude will be here between 12 and 2pm.

More *eep*

Corrie blurb

Oh yeah ... I reckon Sophie sent that postcard to her Dad, saying "sophie's next"

Soz, I'm watching a bit I missed earlier

Anyroads ... mildly dreading the assessment thingy now that the day's nearly here and I fancy another Snickers Marathon but it's too late for the shops. Humph.

S'pose I should crash.

The End

This is part of what has been happening in the river at ours. I couldn't remember all the details yesterday.

LINKY

Crap on telly too. Maybe I'll watch one of those dvds.

*sigh*

I'll prolly collapse this afternoon, then start the non sleep cycle again

*doofus* ... will try to keep going till 11ish

BTW ... thanks for getting in touch JL. I've missed you xx

That was a really nice day. I've only just recovered from the come-down of a small amount of alcohol (if you could call it that - I'm such a light-weight)

Sauntered round looking for red ivy to photo. Didn't see much but we saw a pheasant in the college courtyard

Headed for The Backs area of the town, had lunch in a sweet place we've been before. The fish was ok but I think the Steak & Ale was a bit chewy

Had a few Smirnoff Ice's there and at the pub next to the river. Sat on the steps on the smokers patio. watched for punters falling in (they bluddy didn't - spoilsports!) Some dressed as pirates! A baby in one punt, a dog in another Didn't see any of the world Cambridge-famous punt rage wars.

I allowed my laugh to emerge after a few bottles

All in all a lovely day.

Came home to a pile of unwashed dishes and a child hammering on the back door demanding money for food he came back 10 minutes later, apologising

He's staying at his wee pal's house tonight. Meh. Come home, child.

... are visiting my beautiful city tomorrow - yippee!

We're gonna have a meal and a couple of drinkies. Can't remember how many times we've met now ... 4? ...5?

Anyway, however many, it'll be bloody good to see them again

See lawyer - check

Phone BT - check

Phone DSS - check

Phone Dad - check

Phonecall from the only bloke Mini was able to talk to in primary school. He's gonna phone the boy tonight and arrange to meet up to chat about any issues the wee yin has. Wonderful, he's my friend's husband and has 3 boys of his own. He knows what he's doing. My boy accepted him as 'cool' as soon as he met him.

I feel that I've achieved a few things today *phew*

Even made Andy's mum laugh at one of my flickr comments

And his sisters asked my name! He's gonna pass on one of my recipes

Old Jokes Home:

A vicar books into a hotel and says to the hotel clerk
"I hope the porn channel is my room is disabled?"

She says "No sir, it's just regular porn. You sick bastard."

LINK

So much has happened in 7 years. Bad and good. Normal.

I'm 40 now, Mum. Yer grandon's been in trouble with the police but even they knew he was a good wee lad really. It looks better now. Life looks better. It will be better when ... That's positive though, eh?

Yer sister phoned me to blether this morning. I was just up and running late as usual. Making brekkie and running the bath as we chatted. Trying to eat and talk and finish the conv cos I was worrying.

Me - you know it's Mum's day?

Her - Yes, that's another reason I phoned, just to touch base. I got some beautiful flowers in ...

Me - Well all I've got is a sore back but ....

*guffaws*

*chokes on toast and finishes conv*

It was a nice moment, Mum, and you'd have laughed too. All those impressions of you ... posture ... accent perfected ... "Oh ma back!"

~~~

We'd have sorted it all out eventually. We never got the chance to, I hadn't worked up the courage or the words to ... I'm so sorry for that. x

This is odd. I don't know why the speakers aren't doing anything.

I don't know the password for the wireless connection, and I didn't bring my cable *damn*

Ths PC is a wee bit slow mainly because it's IE instead of firefox I think.

The dog was well happy to see me, she's a wee (balloon-shaped) cutie.

Apparently if she starts scraping at the carpet loads and nesting ... there's about 24 hours till she has them. No sign yet.

Think I'll go read my book. Might come back later

Girl With A Pearl Earring - £3

Dirty Tricks - £2

The second one stars Martin Clunes. I think it was on TV first. Looks quite funny. His films/TV shows are usually pretty good.

Bored.

I phoned my ex to ask how it went with Mini with the new access set-up. I was worried in case he was nipping ex's head about wanting to come home to hang out with his wee pals.

Turns out it went really well because he was able to settle in, instead of the usual unpacking his stuff one day and packing again the next day.

We'll keep an eye on how things go on and if it causes any problems he can stay a day less and see him the following Monday.

I'll get used to it, if it's 3 days in a row for once a fortnight. It'll be fine. As long as it went well. Actually, better than well

*phew!*

Trial and error

Not done too much today.

Re-arranged loads of shoes from under the stairs ... I will regain control of that cupboard, I will!

Hoovered.

Spot of navel gazing.

Recovered a friendship before it went bonkers (my fault)

Arranged a mini-blogmeet for next weekend.

Spoke to my Aunt.

Watched another 2 episodes of Men In Trees.

I'm really, really missing Andy (on the web Andy) His net isn't fixed yet so I can't speak to him on skype or MSN It's been going on for daaaaays.

Email only. He's been on blog a little bit but the netspeed restricts him

Missing the wee yin too. I hope we can juggle the access cos three days in a row feels too long, with a fortnight's gap. I won't see him till he gets back from school tomorrow. He left on Friday evening.

I should go read a book, the telly's guff tonight. Oh hang on ... 'Secretary' is on later. That looks amusing.

HERE

I think this one is letter substitute code

and it's bugging me

LINK for website, updated every Sunday.

It was letter substitution code (well done NotBob)

“I’m too scared to say I love you because I know sooner or later I will be the one to fuck this up. I’m sorry”

Swiped from Xenon ...

Using your iPod, MP3 player, or Windows Media Player, put your favourite playlist on Shuffle and answer the following for each song as they come up:

1. "Overkill" by Colin Hay

Your favourite lyric from this song:

Especially at night, I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright, Perhaps it's just imagination.

Does this song have any bad memories attached?

No, only good ones.

What genre is this song?

I dunno

2. "The Mad, Mad Moonlight" by Steve Harley & Cockney Rebel

What is the last line of the song?

But I said; if it's ok by you, I'll just sit here a take me a rest.

Have you ever seen this artist live?

Yes, in Glasgow (Pavilion?)

Who does this song make you think of?

Andy Arnott (R.I.P.)

3. "Secret Smile" by Semisonic

What is the first line of this song?

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile and you use it only for me.

Where did you first hear this song?

Youtube

How about the first time you heard this artist?

Hmmm. Maybe about 2 years ago (dinna ken)

4. "The Pretender" by Foo Fighters

What friend could this be a theme song for?

No-one really, I can't give this one to anyone, it's too angry and aggressive.

Write down the chorus:

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I'll never surrender?

Why do you like this song?

It's good for letting a bad mood loose (without anyone else copping it)

5. "Virginia Avenue" by Tom Waits

What kind of film would you choose this as a theme for?

An artsy type thing set in poor district in USA

Who introduced you to this group?

Can't remember, my bro maybe?

What is your favourite part of this song?

Cause I'm walking on down Columbus Avenue
The bars are all closing, 'cause it's quarter to two
Every town I go to is like a lock without a key
Those I leave behind are catching up on me

6. "Trapped In A Box" by No Doubt

The fourth line reads:

It sucks up our lives and proliferates lies

How long is this song?

I dunno, but my software says it's 1.55MB ... just checked - 3:23

Is this song one of your favourites? Why or why not?

It is. Cos it always makes me think of blogging

7. "Everybody Loves A Carnival" by Fat Boy Slim

How long have you been listening to this artist?

Aaaaages. About 8 years or something.

What's the cover look like on the album this song came from?

Like this:

What's this song about?

Having fun, dancing, swinging yer pants

(I did this post the other day and must have messed up the time stamp so i'm re-posting)

That book you sent recently is fantastic

The Battersea Park Road To Enlightenment

Really funny, I've read the first chapter so far and it's nutz but true

We shouted. We said horrible things. I cried.

A day passed. We apologised. We compromised.

Access arrangements all sorted now.

I have to sort summat with lawyer about my name being on the tenancy. Straightforward, uncontested. Into court, bitta paper, out again.

He'd never have us turfed out, but he needs a place of his own now, and can't have his name on 2 properties.

It's a relief to have it resolved between us. I really don't want us to be enemies.

Just a bit more respect on both sides. I'm no angel.

When I went to the docs with P the other day, she mentioned something and I totally forgot about it.

I'm watching Monkey Business (Cary Grant film) just now and he mentioned it.

Bursitis. That's what is happening in my hip.

My memory's so shit.

Anyway, I wiki'd it and it's this

This is like having a corkboard in the kitchen

I was watching a news prog the other day and as they flicked on the feed from USA ... it showed some stock market or other. The building had at least 3 storeys and the camera was inside giving us an eyeball of all these stressed out dudes looking at screens and yapping on 'cellphones'.

But just before they panned down to them, I swear that on the third storey, on that balcony, there were a group of about 10 suits congratulating each other and all but popping champagne corks. It quickly flashed past and pointed below at all the other be-suited ones.

Being a curious soul, it's been bothering me ever since. I wonder what had happened to make this important looking crowd look so pleased with themselves?

That's all.

I'm impressed

Out of Lesson Pass

Mini Subz

Please allow Mini to leave the classroom without question.

Mini will go directly to ##

(signed by teacher)

That's a pretty good way of dealing with it. I wish they'd offered it before.

Mini's bike's been nicked

A man walks into a bar with a paper bag. He sits down and places the bag on the counter. The bartender walks up and asks what's in the bag.

The man reaches into the bag and pulls out a little man, about one foot high and sets him on the counter. He reaches back into the bag and pulls out a small piano, setting it on the counter as well. He reaches into the bag once again and pulls out a tiny piano bench, which he places in front of the piano.

The little man sits down at the piano and starts playing a beautiful piece by Mozart!

'Where on earth did you get that?' says the bartender.

The man responds by reaching into the paper bag ... This time he pulls out a magic lamp. He hands it to the bartender and says: 'Here. Rub it.'

So the bartender rubs the lamp, and suddenly there's a gust of smoke and a beautiful genie is standing before him. 'I will grant you one wish. Just one wish ~~ each person is only allowed one!'

The bartender gets real excited. Without hesitating he says, 'I want a million bucks!' A few moments later, a duck walks into the bar. It is soon followed by another duck, then another. Pretty soon, the entire bar is filled with ducks and they keep coming!

The bartender turns to the man and says, 'Y'know, I think your genie's a little deaf. I asked for a million bucks, not a million ducks.'

'Tell me about it!!' says the man, 'do you really think I asked for a 12 inch pianist?

(Forwarded by PD xxx)

... weren't altogether honest with you lot about being 'just best buddies' for ages.

We've been virtually seeing each other for the past 2 years. That's why I was so out-on-a-limb when the Leeds blogmeet happened.

That's also why I've been so bitey when women start flirting with him

The first time we met was Yeovil, then Cambridge a few months later, then Liverpool, then Cambridge again when Flicky was here, then June this year.

I really, really want to go to Devon. I really, really need money

It's serious. We are working towards being together full time. It's a bit of a juggle, as you can imagine.

As with insomnia ... time goes so slowly.

I know most of you know this by now, but I've never really said the whole thing. So there you go I love the bone bones of him.

I guess this answers that meme Q I was struggling with ... I'm a night person.

Been trying to get to sleep for 2 hours ... fuckit!

Apparently tomorrow I'll now be ...

* Growing veg in a poly tunnel next to the shed
* Writing a public thank you to P on my church website
* Writing a post about me 'n' him
* Phoning the school to ask about paying up Mini's school trip
* Sorting out my web connection on the PC
* Transferring pictures from PC to porta-hard drive
* Arranging the name change on the house with the council

This is what my brain has been plotting when I'm trying to get it to shut down for a bit

I've finished the book I'd been reading (Bygones). It panicked me a bit when I started it ... it's about a divorced couple who are thrown together by their daughter's wedding plans, who then reminisce about everything and fall in love again. It DID NOT make me want to go there but I couldn't put the damn thing down once I started reading.

Jeez, I miss Andy. These last few months all I've wanted to do is snuggle in his arms and feel hidden from all the crap, just till I'm refreshed again to cope. He strengthens me.

I want to go back to church now that my bike's fixed. Car-parking will be a no-go cossa my back/hips but the old team had crumbled with that anyway, it was never the same. Maybe I can do the book stall again?

blahblahblah

I bet I sleep late again tomorrow today