Child maintenance due on Friday (last week) ... didn't show up 
Checked Saturday, no. Sunday, no. Monday, no.
Phoned CSA. They said it wasn't paid to them! Ex has no idea why bank didn't pay.
I've had enough of this. Gonna do a direct debit every month.
He says he'll phone them tomorrow and drop the full amount to me tomorrow at lunchtime. Phew!
Many people fight for a piece of that 
Tired.
Tired of everything. Wish my pain relief was sorted out. I don't want to be on valium and codeine every 5 weeks.
Oh yeah, and I think I'm going mad. For ages I thought I had 2 different personalities. Fairly sure I'm not schizophrenic though. 
Puzzled. Life is weird and brains are weirder.
My lifestyle is not normal. Why would anyone want a part of that? Run. Far, far away.
